a simple thank you..

to start this off… i’m going to be blunt and honest. i have no idea what is going on. i haven’t talked to any of the guys specifically on the matter. so for those of you who are reading this blog in hopes of an answer, or in hopes of getting more information..i am sorry to say that i am going to disappoint you.

i’m writing this blog to say that i support them no matter what. i realize people are going to tweet me and post “you are a brown noser” or “stop kissing so much ass”…but to be honest..i don’t care. (no pun intended) fall out boy is one of the few bands who have a had a significant impact on my life and as an artist. here is a picture of me and pete from five or so years ago. my brace face and all. the first time i ever crowd surfed was to “tell mick…” and i swear to god pete pointed at me as a floated across the crowd pointing back at him, screaming the words that he poured his heart, soul, and un-trimmed chest  into writing. first time i got kicked out of a concert? fall out boy. i was singing along to “saturday” and accidentally punched a security guard in the jaw while throwing my fist up to a break in the bridge. fall out boy were a group of guys..just like us. some considered them underdogs..yet they took the world by storm. patrick has taught me that singers in this genre don’t just have to play three power chords and hit simple cheap notes when they sing. we can be soulful.. we can actually sing with a little bit of emotion. patrick has taught me so much about being myself as a singer, artist, and as a person..and that as long as i am honest with myself..people will follow.

i was just like a lot of you guys. i’d ditch school, camp out at the venue the morning of the shows, and stand outside in the cold waiting for the guys to come outside so i could nervously shake their hand and tell them that their music had changed my life. i knew that they probably got it three hundred times a day..but i didn’t mind. they always made me feel like it meant something to them. and to this day…i believe it did.

i have fall out boy to thank for almost everything i have. pete listening to me sing at a gym class heroes video shoot senior week during my finals. he was dressed up as elvis, but still found time to give a nerdy little vegas kids with braces a shot at playing a song or two on guitar. they invited me to come out on tour with them for a few days…where me and patrick ended up forming our song “bounce” and talking about hell boy comics. pete has also taught me not to take naked photos of myself…haha just kidding ;) i can still remember waking up at pete’s house to hemmingway attacking my face as if it was normandy, and pete laughing like an 8 year old as he filmed it on his old school video camera.

i apologize for getting so nostalgic on you…but i want you to know that i am right there with you guys. it has hit me hard like i’m sure it has all of you. here is what you have to think about though…

fall out boy will never be completely over.

i have enough memories to last me three lifetimes. they’ve put enough wind in my sails to push me around the world a dozen or so times. they won’t be forgotten. how many bands that you listen to were started because of fall out boy? or at least we’re inspired by their songs and sounds.  fall out boy wasn’t just a band. it was a movement. it was the light between the clouds that showed that us kids can become something great. it was the fact the we can all change the world in our own ways. even if we all feel like underdogs sometimes. how can we be mad or upset with them when they have given us so much? i have heard some of patrick’s new stuff…and it is absolutely amazing. pete seems to be getting into something everyday that’s groundbreaking, new, and exciting. none of our boys are going anywhere. we need to be proud of them. i’m going to support them like they supported me. when i was lonely in my bedroom..i could put on my fall out boy cd and escape for a few minutes. have you guys seen how big little bronx is getting? isn’t he a beautiful little boy? how amazing is that for pete? they’re growing up just like we are…and they deserve a round of applause. a standing ovation. who knows what they’ll do in the future..but we all know what they have done in the past. no one can take fall out boy away from us…

not even them personally.

-alexander deleon

i know i have been promising this blog for awhile. i’ve been doing crazy things such as saying “scout’s honor” though i never was a boy scout. hell…i’ve been crossing my pinkies, and even my pinky toes. i just wanted this one to be perfect. i’ll run is such a powerful and meaningful song to me, i had to make sure that when this blog finally saw the light of day, that it would flourish and be ready to go.  before i get into the actual song, i just want to share something I recently heard about with you guys…

“Jordan from New Found Glory needs our help. His mom, Maureen,  is really sick and we’re trying to raise money to help cover her medical expenses. On Friday, November 27th, she was rushed to Broward General Medical Center CVICU due to a sudden, unidentified infection which has severely weakened her heart. She is in critical, yet stable condition with only 10% of her heart working on it’s own, and may need a transplant.  Because Maureen is without insurance, things are moving real slow and against the clock. For more info click here:
http://helpmendaheart.com

Please take the time to check out our other auctions too.  We’re selling items from Fall Out Boy, The Academy Is.. and The Cab.”

This is some of the worst news I have heard in a long time. Can you imagine? Waking up, feeling sick and then getting word that your heart is giving up on you? One day you are fine..and the next you are fighting the battle of your life. She has no insurance, and we need to help. Not as music fans…but as fans of other people. As fans of strength and compassion. Look..I know my band isn’t very big, and that’s fine, but I have decided to help out in any way that I possibly can. I grew up listening to New Found Glory and going to their shows (see below) and when i heard about this it broke my heart.

I am auctioning off my original lyrics to our song “I’ll Run.” I wrote them in Mr. Sully’s chemistry class back in high school. I was going to save them for myself, maybe give them to my kids down the road, etc…but when I got the opportunity to help get someone a new heart, and a new shot at living with ease and happiness, I had to take it. my family raised me to always give the shirt off of my back to others if they ever needed it. I’d even give the skin off of my back if I had to. Giving my lyrics up for this cause is really the least I can do. The lyrics include the first drafts of the words, and even cash wrote a few lines of lyrical suggestions on them which are included. I know this is just a piece of paper and won’t go for much…but whether it’s 5 dollars or 500 it is going to go straight to Jordan’s mom and it’s going to help her in every single way that it can. If this was my mom, I would hope others would do the same. Go place a bid on them…own a piece of my history, the cab’s history, and help save a life. we are human. love is what we do. it’s who we were born to be.

this story is what i’ll run is all about. the term “i’ll run” isn’t about fitness or exercise. when one runs, or sprints..they are pushing themselves to a limit. they’re putting their all into what they are doing. with one hundred percent intensity, heart, and effort. it’s how we should live life. when you live…live loud. when you love… love with everything you have. why talk when you can scream? why sleep when you can dream? why settle for anything less than the summit? when i sing “i’ll run..have a little faith in me,” i am saying that i will do anything in my power to pick you up off of the ground and i will give everything i have within these bones to make a difference. it’s a promise. it’s about realizing how strong you are. discovering your niche in the world and being happy to fall asleep under the blanket of your own skin.

we will fall down. it’s one thing in life that in inevitable. we can’t do everything on our own. when you see someone around you stumble or fall to pieces, pick them up. help them out. lead by example so when you fall, someone can be there for you. the song is about being scared, feeling lost and alone, but then having someone..your human angel being there to pick you up and restoring your faith in humanity and most importantly yourself. YOU can make more of a difference in the lives of those around you than you will ever realize. i’ve seen it firsthand. THAT is why we need to help and love each other. even if we don’t know them personally. if you have the chance to bring a smile to someone else’s face or happiness to someone else’s soul, don’t ever not take it. that missed opportunity will cast a shadow over a lot more than the 30 seconds it would take to make happen.

i am on my knees begging you to help out in any way you can. the link to the ebay site with my lyrics is at the bottom of this post. you guys know that i don’t sell things. i would never ask for a penny from you if it weren’t for something important. i hope these words mean to  you as much as they mean to me..and if you are the person who ends up taking them home….god bless you and thank you. you have touched a life and that, my friends, is something that no one can ever take away from you.

i love you all and hope you are all doing well.

god bless you Maureen. you’re in my prayers. stay strong…wings of help are on their way.

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-alexander michael deleon

love.

when you fall in love. you fall hard. we’re human we can’t help it. when you love someone, in a way you are trading hearts. you unzip your chest, reach for the heart of your loved and slowly insert it to yours, hoping to lock it away for a forever or two. most of us know the feeling. or maybe not. love is a curiously sly cat. love is falling, but never touching the ground. love is falling up. coincidentally when sitting down to write out each chapter of my life, i always seem to spit out the same bunches of y’s, o’s, and u’s. you find the person you love and it’s like a car crash. life turns to slow motion. it starts with the loss of breath, slowly makes your insides tingles, and ends with your cheeks being pulled up and away..almost like the puppet master himself is tugging at the strings connected to the corners of your mouth. love is your heart smiling in a monumental way. you start spending time with the person you care for and it only gets better. your nose starts to scrunch your nose a lot more…when you laugh, you laugh differently than you ever had before..because this time it’s real. you become attached to living life horizontally, and hell…you even start watching different tv shows and trying foods that you swore on the bible itself you’d never try. yes..maybe even colliflower. why do we fall in love? is it because we don’t want to be alone? can we help it at all? can love be influenced? whatever and however this little guy works…the job almost always gets done until your slow dancing in the kitchen listening to people with far better class, style, and voices sing to you about songs that make you feel like maybe somewhere in this world there is a niche you can finally fit happily into. and you know what? there might even be space for two.

you think about them everyday. you’ve hung all of your memories around all over your mind’s fridge with cute little magnets. you saved the tree bark from the tree you kissed them against. you’ve kept the movie stubs where you snuck out and caught a late night flick about everlasting love. remember walking out and telling them how the love in the movie was nothing compared to the one that you two shared?  you hear their voices in the static between the radio stations that play the same 10 songs that they did three months ago. you see their face in your eyes when you look into the mirror for sympathy on the bi-daily basis. loving them was like swinging on a tire swing. hearing their voice sing into your ear was honestly the glue that held your bones together.  you’d rather be able to lay under the night and just replay “us” in your head and smile to yourself than hold anyone else. you know it might not last forever. but who is to say forever starts or ends today? just like an old lamp, when the sun burns out…you just have to put a new lightbulb in. i don’t know what this all means..or what i’m really saying. i just know that this world has become so materialistic and none of that matters. my dad taught me my whole life that love is the only thing that matters in the end. we are all going through rough times…but things will get better. find someone that shines through it all. i’m still looking for that. i’m just like you guys. i want the ocean eyes. the california mind. the framed angel sky. i know it may take some time…but one day..i’m going to meet a girl who’s smile i use to speak,  and though coins might make the clocks tick, love makes the hearts beat.

i wish you all love and happiness in this life. one in each hand.

goodnight.

-alexander deleon

As much as Cancun was great for us as musicians, it was also great for us as people. I learned so much on our trip by observing the world around me, and as ironic as it sounds, one of my favorite parts of the trip was one that didn’t involve music….or actually any sound at all. One of the days we were there we got invited by some wonderful people to a place called Rio Secreto. Rio Secreto is an underground river that snakes its way through hundred of miles of underground caves and caverns. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. We put on wetsuits and helmets (I looked like the spawn of Bob the Builder and Aquaman) and began our journey down into the caves. It was fascinating. Being on tour and being from Vegas I am so used to the hustle and bustle of big cities filled with sounds, fast paced shoes, and business. In the caves however, it was pitch black and silent. Literally. You couldn’t see your hand if you held it an inch in front of your eyes. The water was so pure, you could drink it and all of the vitamins actually made it good for you. It was crystal clear. The formations were breathtaking. In some weird way I felt right at home. I mean..being Batman and all..being in a cave with bats was quite comfy for me. There was one point where our guide had us turn off our flashlights and asked us to sit down in complete silence in the darkness. The feeling was indescribable. There are not many places you can experience this. There wasn’t a chirp of a bird, a rustle of a leaf, the sound of toyota camry’s…nothing. We as people take a lot for granted, especially the simplistic beauty of nature. As corny as that sounds….i strongly encourage you to explore, experience, and see the world around you. You might be pleasantly surprised. I could go on for hours on the place…I’m just going to post some pictures so you can see for yourself how breathtaking and beautiful it was. Hope you guys are doing well.

-Alexander Deleon

Though we went to Cancun for many reasons… the main one was to write music. After 2+ years of touring, it was time to start writing material. Writing isn’t as easy as it looks. For example, I can’t write at anytime I please. There is no on and off switch. No easy button. No “pull my finger” and see what happens. Writing is about being inspired. I could sit in my apartment for weeks and write songs. They might turn out okay… but sometimes you just need to get out of your element. You need to leave the nest and explore something unknown yet familiar. We packed our computers, our speakers, our instruments, and our minds and threw them over our shoulder as we prepared for the trip of a lifetime. Don’t get me wrong, we still got into some trouble, snorkeled, went to the spa, etc… but we did spend a huge chunk of our time digging into some songs. This record is all about pushing our boundaries. We feel like we have so much to prove as artists and we are working extra hard to create something not only good, but unique and special. We might be crossing a few lines and throwing a few rule books away, but at least in the end I know we’re going to have an album that we’re proud of. What is life if you don’t take a few risks. Art comes from under your skin. This album is going to be US. US recorded onto tracks to be released to the world. Whether it was writing songs at 3 am on the beach, sketching out lyrics on a hammock, or recording piano parts in our makeshift studio, we were writing with our hearts. There were no music videos playing around us, no knobs around us adjusting the volume of the radio, and no one telling us what to do or what to write. It was just us. 3 artists. 1 family. Cancun, Mexico. Hope you all enjoy the photos that were shot of us as the writing process was going down. I’ll be posting more soon, and there is a surprise coming very, very soon. Video updates coming soon!

-Alexander Michael

ahhhhh!

We recently went to Cancun recently to relax, breathe, and write music. While there our good friend James Parker video taped and took pictures of pretty much every single move that we made. For the next week or so I am going to be posting pictures of our trip. Unfortunately, most of them will be of me…or me and a friend or two, because I don’t want to post pictures of the other guys and them get mad at me for posting the wrong ones etc. Hope you enjoy them!! While we were there we wrote some really fun and neat songs and we are counting down the days until you can hear them. Today’s theme is pool party..haha (clever name i know) where I’m posting pictures of us hanging out at the swimming pool at the ME Cancun Hotel. Talk to you guys soon!!!

-Alexander Michael

*All photos by James Parker*

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jamesparkerphotography/

dazed and confused.

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Meet Frank Sinatra DeLeon.

Ladies and gentlemen…I am now a daddy.

I told myself i wouldn’t do it. I think we all tell ourselves we won’t do it…and then we see them. We see our best friend. the cutest face we’d ever seen. We meet someone that will love us unconditionally. Who will love you in the morning when you wake up and your hair looks like Albert Einstein’s. Who will love you whether your band sells 2 records or 2 million records. He is my world.

Frankie is a Boston Terrier. I chose the name Frank  Sinatra for many reasons. One is because he is a little gentlemen. Boston’s colorings look like they have on a tuxedo, and my handsome little guy is no exception. Frank Sinatra was the ultimate gentlemen. He was the ladies man, the man with the golden voice, and Las Vegas’ number one hero. (He was also known to get into a little bit of trouble) The cutest part about him might be is one white paw. All the rest are black. Most Boston Terrier’s have two white front paws…my guy is special.

I have only had him for a day and I already am in love.  He loves rope. He loves nibbling on my scruffy chin. He plays in front of the mirror for hours thinking that the puppy looking back at him is a new friend. He sleeps and snores, which might be the most adorable part of him. His favorite place to sleep is on my chest and tucked between a bunch of pillows. We are a like in many many ways. This is the happiest I have been in a long time and I couldn’t be more excited. My new best friend is amazing and I can’t wait to bring him on tour one day when we get a bus so you can all meet him. 

Love him. I dare you.

-Alexander Michael DeLeon

P.S. I will posting tons of pictures and updates of Frankie on Twitter (@symphnysldr) so you guys can watch him grow with me! He is a stud.

First off I can’t thank our fans enough for making the What Happens In Vegas tour a success beyond our wildest dreams. I don’t think anybody quite realizes how much this means to us but it absolutely means the world. It was our first nationwide headlining tour and you guys were loving, welcoming, and absolutely incredible!  I’m sad to say the day has come where Cash has decided to leave the band and to move on from touring to pursue his other interests and dreams and to do what’s right for him in Las Vegas.   If you follow Cash on twitter I’m sure you’ve seen everything he has on his plate and that he’s been working on at home.  We wish him the best and I’m sure he’ll be no stranger at a Cab show or anytime we’re back in town. Thank you again to everyone for your unending support, you’ve made the tour and this summer one we’ll never forget. We hope to see everybody again soon. We are happier than ever and have so many songs we are dying to show you guys! Get ready… the best is yet to come!

-alexander michael

in case you guys have been wondering…

i’m sorry that i’ve been so quiet on twitter and on my blog… i have been letting the whole “being home” thing sink in. i’ve also been working very hard on this blog. i spent a few hours on this and i hope i didn’t disappoint. i always keep my promises and i promised that i would read EVERY single letter i received. well here goes a few responses… there will be more to come, i promise. i keep every single one. i love you guys with all my heart and i hope this shows how much i truly appreciate you….

samantha leonard- thank you so much for taking the time to write me. you wrote that you were worried that i have forgotten about you guys, because i hadn’t posted on here for awhile. that couldn’t be farther from the truth. i was going through a rough time and just needed to take a bit to pull myself together. i will never forget about you and i promise you that until the day that i breathe my last breathe i will be here for you guys.

adriane M.- thank you for calling me mr. batman. it gave me a pretty big smile. i also want to say thank you for reminding me that strength can always be found. even if it’s like a needle in a haystack. i would love to check out that beach… i love nothing more than to explore and experience places i’ve never been or seen before!

jessica anne- you are a very good writer. i was very impressed! you have a bright future ahead of you. you also must be very strong… i cannot imagine going through what you go through especially with everything you told me about. i’m glad you found that music can give you strength when you feel like there is nothing left. as long as you believe in yourself..i promise you will get through everything. try talking to them. sit them down. you are a beautiful person, and they need to see that. if they don’t make an effort to love you and if they don’t see how amazing you are, then they don’t deserve to know you or to feel the love you have to offer. chin up, okay? 

p.s. tell michael i said hi

grace novacek- your songs were amazing! keep up the good work. i’m actually working on some lyrics right now. it’s not easy to put words together to form a story or a beautiful song…but you managed to do a great job! i’m rootin’ for you…

alyx reimer- i can’t believe “i’m a wonder” is your favorite song. i didn’t think many people had even heard that one! it’s one of my favorites too. i am really sorry about your friend. sometimes people get scared and they feel like the only option is to run. keep supporting her and being their for her. i am sure she will come around. promise me that you’ll never give up hope…even if those around you do.i’ll always be here to catch you before you hit the ground.

holly pulgarin- hahaha i laughed out loud when you wrote about how you tie your shoes like me. we’re such dorks. also, i assure you that my handwriting is much more crooked than yours. i really hope you enjoyed the show in albuquerque…we had a blast. if this whole band thing doesn’t work out, maybe i’ll take your advice and submit my resume to hallmark. :)

jessica devoss- it was great meeting you! how crazy is it that our parents are friends? how do you like reno? i think you’ll like vegas a lot. at first, it’s a bit intimidating..but i promise you that after a while you’ll feel right at home. hopefully we can hang out soon! 

sabrina meleo- US magazine!? that’s where you found us!? INSANE. thank you so much for caring enough to come to multiple shows. our band would be nothing without people like you and i hope you realize how much we appreciate everything. it’s pretty cool that “lights” is your favorite song on our new Lady Lucky EP, because it almost didn’t make it. i fought really hard for it. at first the label said no, but the video of us playing it acoustic did so well on youtube and people requested it so much that i made sure it made it. did you know “lights” was one of the few songs i played for pete solo, just me and a guitar, the night he signed us? guess we did something right :P see you soon!

pamela (san francisco)- first off, my brain is much faster than my hand too! you are a great writer. this has to be one of the best and well written letters i have ever gotten.  the amazing thing about music, is that it is unique to everyone. that..we don’t have to necessarily be able to put how we feel into words, because music can be our little secret. our escape. it doesn’t matter what it means to anyone else. all the matters is what it means to YOU. i can’t believe you said i’m “40 different kinds of amazing.” that is not true! i’m just a regular guy. a big goofball, to be honest. you can interview me anytime you want, okay? thank you for calling me a beautiful person..though i’m sure you are even more amazing than you’d ever give yourself credit for. you’ve got a light about you. it’s very refreshing. go inspire those around you. you have it in you.

kara elizabeth- 8 is my favorite number, so the fact that you’ve seen us 8 times is rad. you can say thank you for me signing and hanging in the Boston heat, but I want to thank YOU for waiting around in that heat to meet us and share your amazing presence with us. thanks for the tigger..i am looking at him right now. he’s such a handsome little guy. just as you’ll always be there supporting us, we’ll always be here supporting you.

lexi moreland- why in the heck are you up at 2:33 am!? i thought i was the only crazy one!  i can’t wait to read your tumblr. i’m sure it’s incredible! you are so strong to have gotten through what you have gotten through. people like you are MY heroes. you CAN reach your goals. your dreams CAN come true. we all forget that sometimes. and WOW! your dog is so cute!

miranda ashley nunez- you are one hundred percent right. our imperfections are what make us beautiful. how boring would the world be if we all looked the same!? thank you for driving 6 hours to come see us. that seriously makes my heart drop. i try to be as honest as i can in my blogs. i don’t look as you guys as strangers…you are my family. when i’m down, you pick me up. if i don’t have you guys…who do i have? i’ll always be honest. haha aww you’ll find your edward! have you met our merch guy sonny? JUST KIDDING! sorry..that was a lame joke. your letter wasn’t cheesy or weird. your letter was beautiful and heartfelt…and that means so much to me. the pink ink started getting to my eyes a bit after a while, but i think they’ll be just fine :) can’t wait to meet you again! take care…and don’t be afraid to smile….even if it’s at a stranger.

mandi ontis- first off..i am so sorry about the ridiculous face i made in the picture of us! i can be pretty shy so the only way to cover it up is by making the most obnoxious facial expressions possible. i think it’s great that you want to work in this industry..it can be such a fun place! very dramatic and cliquey at times…but overall it’s a blast. it’s tough to break into but i have faith in you. always be a whisper warrior!! never change!!! thank you so much for all of the kind words. you’re a doll.

kc and the stickamers- haha i’ll definitely have to join your room sometime and chat! i’m crossing my fingers that emma watson will be there. you guys sound crazy! jonas brothers sing alongs? you think i’m crazy????………..ah what the hell! let’s do it!

shannon marie spellman- did you every get to meet me? i hope so because you seem like a great person. william and travis are some of my people in the world too. looks like we have a lot in common. looking back on our show at natick is amazing. how crazy was that show? so hectic but it turned out to be such a memorable experience for everyone involved. we’ve truly never done anything like that. “high hopes” is one of my favorites too. it’s extremely fun to sing. sorry it took me so long to write back. forgive me? i took your dare. i love you :) did your face hurt? mine does if i smile for that long!

rachael polansky- isn’t inspire a beautiful word? i can’t think of a better one to be printed on my shoulder for life, or for you to wear around your neck. i think it us beautiful that you want to help kids that have been bullied. being bullied is such a terrible feeling. i know first hand. it is the lowest feeling. some people just don’t care about other people’s feelings. IF YOU ARE READING THIS AND HAVE BEEN OR ARE BEING BULLIED PLEASE PAY ATTENTION. do NOT let them talk down to you. you are just as much of a person as they are. people that bully are insecure and are hurting on the inside. if anything we should be sorry for THEM. i know it hurts but you have to continue to be strong. tell your parents, tell your principle…whatever you do…do NOT let them get away with it. people need to realize that it takes more energy to be rude and cruel to someone than it does to be kind and loving. we are all one. we are all people. we all have families. we all have beating hearts. and we all have smiles wrapped in little boxes just waiting to be opened. love with everything you’ve got. spread the word. don’t let anyone…and i mean ANYONE slow you down. you have a life to live and you are going to do it right.  you CAN make a difference, rachael. you can, will, and probably already have a lot more than you know.

michelle warsing- your “h” does not look like a diseased cow haha it looks like a polka dotted flamingo. thanks for the drawing. i love you guys too.

paige nicole kerschan-  i know how you feel about not being a teenager. i was seriously bummin out when i turned twenty. it feels like the best days and times of your life are slowly disappearing in the rearview mirror. i’ve come to learn though, the life is truly what you make of it. i read stories of 90 year olds skydiving..of 75 year old couples sailing the world. age truly is just a number, and though some great times may be behind you..the best is yet to come. you were at that kansas city show? i was in so much pain that night. i’d never been in crutches before but we didn’t want to disappoint you guys. i hope we did okay. i am glad you are pushing forward with your dreams even though some people are putting them down. life is too short to live your life for someone else. your life is in your hands..it always will be. let your heart take the wheel. 

phoebe svoboda- the fact that you went to TWELVE different stores to find a copy of our record is truly so kind of you. are you an 1989 baby too!? that’s awesome. it’s an honor to say i was born in the wonderful decade called the 80’s. i’m glad i bring happy tears to your eyes and not sad ones. your words truly have touched me….you are much to nice to me. you are way more cool than me already, i promise you. i read your whole letter and no…i’m not bored or pyscho. well, actually..i may be a little crazy..but who isn’t!? i hope you’re doing well. and LMAO! best closing line to a letter EVER…

“THANK YOU FOR NOT BEING DEAD/DYING <3” hahahahahahahah!!!!

lauren polanksy- are you and rachael related!? haha i was having deja vu for a moment. thanks for the gorgeous letter. it was short, but very sweet. and if you really want to know what happens in vegas….you’ll just have to come and see for yourself!

paloma de oliveira- your letter made me smile from ear to ear. the lyrics around the whole letter definitely was a fun and caring touch! you really DO have an opinion..i promise you it matters. you really CAN help people. i’m glad you realize that. it is crazy to me to hear that you think that i have saved you..because you saved me. i have felt lost so many times and i can get really lonely and homesick..but your letter really came in at a great time. don’t apologize for being a sap…i’m a big sap too! you seemed perfect until you wrote that pooh is better than tigger… now i’m not so sure…haha! just kidding. i love you just the same..but tigger will always own pooh. ALWAYS. if there is one thing i’m sure about, it’s that tigger is the coolest, most lovable character in the world. get over it :P

madeline berg- honey…i can see and feel how down you are. i can tell by reading your letter that you have so much to offer this world. you’re smart, funny, and a genuine person. all of those clouds in your sky are only going to make the sun seem brighter when it finally peeks it’s head out. it must be so hard to move around so much. as a boy, i went to 7 different schools. i know how hard and stressful it can be. all i can say is that good things happen to good people. i know that you are a good person. find something that calms you down. whether it be writing, reading, painting…anything. funnel all of the negativity and bad energy and transform it into something beautiful. if e*** doesn’t think you’re pretty, than he is blind and doesn’t realize how great of a girl you are. someone wonderful one day will, and you will live the life you have always dreamed of. i’ll never stop being me if you promise to never stop being you. deal? i have faith in you.

please don’t be upset if i didn’t respond to your letter in this blog. maybe i will on the next one. i do the best that i can… i really do. even if i don’t respond.. i still read them. take care. i love and miss you all a lot and i’ll be posting very frequently! you guys mean the world to me. be strong. i’ll ALWAYS be here for you as long as you give me the chance to be.

-alexander michael